July 18, 2008
What a way to end the day… Its 12:45 A.M and i am surfing the internet and i come across this video. Two metal gods giving a darshan on Japanese TV… AWESOMEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE
July 16, 2008
The greatest achievement in a man’s life is his ability to control his own mind, to be more precise, to be able to channel his thoughts. All the great thinkers of this planet have shared this realization, and every human being knows that the reason for his or her happiness and the reason for feeling miserable in a particular situation has more to do with the way he is thinking than to do about the situation itself. I am of course not talking about extreme situations like death or ailment where the gravity of the situation is really big.
Over the past year i have experienced dramatic changes in my life. When i look back at the incidents (which i will over and over through out my life) and the way i handled it, i really feel proud of myself. But i still do not know where i got the will and the courage. My theory is since the incidents were so huge and since they occurred within a span of a month , it probably overwhelmed me. There was just no space for any other emotions to get in. Basically they nullified each other.
But as the dust is finally starting to settle, clarity is slowly beginning to crawl in. Of course there are days when i get really emotional and there are days when i feel that i couldnt have done anything about it. It was just part of my karma. But one thing i have been doing regularly is monitor my thoughts. Looking at extreme ends it keeps oscillating.
Yesterday for instance, i had to go to this certain place, a place where i vowed to never go back. And due to some circumstance i had to. So i visited this place, stayed there for a few minutes and rushed back home. When i was at that place, i actually felt nothing. But once i returned home, emotional thoughts took over me. And i started to feel miserable. And as usual it took two hours of gym to get me out of this mood.
Of course mind control is not easy. It takes a life time for people to do it. But at-least the realization that mind is the root cause of happiness and pain in life helps.
July 15, 2008
Realized that i am just not a “work from home” kinda guy. My productivity is almost close to zero. I spent the whole day thinking about my “long lost love” and could only manage to achieve about two hours of proper work. At the end of the day i ended up feeling miserable and it required a two hour session at the gym to get me out of the mood.
WFH sucks
July 14, 2008
Working from home today. Had a bout of severe cold over the weekend. Am not feeling so good. Anyway i think i will be more productive from home in this situation.
“Love me two times — the doors” is playing in the background (courtesy: last.fm).
Have got a lot of things to catch up — workwise. Shall update the post at the end of the day with an analysis of how the WFH went.
Adios
July 7, 2008
I adore music. Even though my preference is on the heavier side, i occasionally listen to country, classical and oldies. The thing is some tunes just stay with me through out the day. I keep humming them while working or in the gym, even in the loo sometimes.
Recently some of the tracks i’ve really enjoyed include
- let me be myself — 3 doors down
- pages — 3 doors down
- Má Vlast Vltava — Bedřich Smetana
- Swan lake — Pyotr Ilyich Tchaikovsky
I remember hearing a guitar version of swan lake played by “the ventures” when i was around twelve or thirteen years old. My dad had purchased this cassette. I think it is still lying around somewhere.
Can’t hold the tears back when i hear it. You realize a person’s value only when he is not around.
“I LOVE YOU DAD.. I MISS YOU TOO TOO MUCH”
July 4, 2008
“Hibernation is a state of inactivity and metabolic depression in animals” - ref - Wikipedia
Yup… Things are looking better though. So i thought i would make a fresh start. Removed all my previous posts and changed the theme of this blog.
